What if...

I read someone's blog just now, and I totally agree with what she wrote. If I manage to get into Nexus, everything, really EVERYTHING, will be different from what it is right now. I won't have to worry about my PMR result, I won't give a heck about SPM and all the government exams. I'll be enjoying my school life just like going to college early. Too bad, these are just 'what ifs'. Everything still remains the same, stuck in this school for the next 2 years. I don't even know whats the reason I was not chosen. I was THAT close, 5 out of 8 in getting that scholarship and I blew it. It's pathetic. I disappoint everyone, EVERYONE, including myself. Just when I thought I had that chance, it just vanished, right before me. A huge opportunity standing right in front of me, and I just blew it away..