What if...

I read someone's blog just now, and I totally agree with what she wrote. If I manage to get into Nexus, everything, really EVERYTHING, will be different from what it is right now. I won't have to worry about my PMR result, I won't give a heck about SPM and all the government exams. I'll be enjoying my school life just like going to college early. Too bad, these are just 'what ifs'. Everything still remains the same, stuck in this school for the next 2 years. I don't even know whats the reason I was not chosen. I was THAT close, 5 out of 8 in getting that scholarship and I blew it. It's pathetic. I disappoint everyone, EVERYONE, including myself. Just when I thought I had that chance, it just vanished, right before me. A huge opportunity standing right in front of me, and I just blew it away..

Wedding dinner..

My mum's cousin got married 3 days ago, so they invited us for their wedding dinner on Sunday. But before the dinner, we went to KLCC to shop for a while. So the people there was staring at us, 'cause we dressed a little over for shopping. The most embarrassing moment ever!

The dinner was nice, BUT there are a few guys, 40+ of age I think, sang on stage. My ear hurts a lot. And there's this Indian waiter, who speaks Chinese! Haha.. He was so shocked when my sister asked for beer.

Imagine yourself wearing like this shopping in KLCC, Lol..

Shopping!

Went to Midvalley today=] Shop till I drop!! Haha, not exactly, just tried out all the expensive clothes and put it back XP Even my mum scolded me :"You so free ar?!" Really free what. Lol.. Anyway, bought my cousin Christmas present from S&J, no one, really no one will ever imagined I'll give him that. Hahaha. Hope he like it la, so it's not a waste of money=]

Plan for tomorrow : Shopping again, I think. Then in the evening, my mum's cousin's wedding. It will be a total grand ceremony, can't wait to go=D Then Monday, shopping with friends again. Lol, I'm a real shopaholic!

BTW, 'Stay Beautiful', 'Should've Say No' and 'Back To December' by Taylor Swift is way nice! Especially 'Back To December' =]

Class trip..

Went for a class trip last Tuesday, in KL. Quite boring. Lol.. Anyway, it rained almost half a day, so we got wet, and I fell sick. Man, I'm weak ain't I?

So here's the pictures, I'm not in any, just being a photographer of the day=]

Fav songs

The song - Stuck Like Glue by Sugarland, is surprisingly nice=] The song slightly don't match the singer, which surprises me, because that song, is cute. Whereas, I'm With You by Avril Lavigne, is very nice. I LOVE it! U Smile by Justin Bieber, not bad, but I prefer That Should Be Me. Innocent by Taylor Swift is nice too, including her new song, Speak Now.

Christmas is almost here, not really, 1 month plus. But I can't celebrate this year =[ I still have not bought any presents yet, don't really have time to go out. Anyways, holiday is relaxing, but a little boring.. That's why I've been digging the kitchen, making baking stuff.=]

Past

"That should be me" by Justin Bieber, is meaningful, very. Singing along, brings me to the over dramatic feeling. Maybe because it has connections, with the past, it just that, people forget, easily. I sometimes hate myself for having a too good memory, it makes me hard to forget things that I want to, just to move on. People forget easily, against time, the memory just being blown like the wind. But for me, it's just hard to forget, it always remains there, right behind the head of mine.

'Was', represents the past, the history that only remains as a memory. Some things should be forgotten and some not. Just in case of forgetting things, I write diaries, I wash photos, so that it remains till the end. Maybe because some things took place in one-fifth of my life, that's why I have trouble forgetting. But why not vice versa? Why isn't it the same? Did the mark left deeply in me? I don't know. My mind is blocked from thinking of it.

Pictures~

Dad's Convocation-26.9.2010


Jumbara Halloween-30.10.2010

Me, Angeline and Wendy~

Cute Wendy and Angeline~

Our legs..?
Start clockwise from that panda:
Wendy, Fianis, Annie, Angeline, Mine, Biona

From the left:
Me, Angeline, Wendy, Annie, Biona

Halloween~

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!
There's a Halloween party held at the Red Crescent Headquarters. How was it? Fun? Boring? Depends.. Actually I don't know, fun in a way, boring in a way too. Anyway, Congrats to WENDY who won the HALLOWEEN'S BEST COSTUME AWARD, and of course the unforgettable ANGELINE who won the HALLOWEEN'S BEST FEMALE CATWALK! Let's give them a hand =]
And about those pictures we've taken, I'm not that nice =( It's ok, I don't give a heck. So, I will post it once I get those pictures.

Anyway, there's just something on my mind that I just want to let it out. It's suffocating me, no, scratch that, it's KILLING me. It's just so hard to let it out. Maybe because it had been a long time, a really really long time..

Boring-est day of all

My friends are so terrible, not one visited me even when I'm sick =( Well got one visited la.. Thanks Nate=] One day I'm feeling terrible, on the other, I felt better, a whole lot better. Weird.. Maybe it's because of the double dosage of antibiotic.

Can my days be even more boring? My everyday plan was just sleeping, eating, using the computer, and nothing else. I can't even go shopping because of that surgery. It's way freaking boring! I can't eat almost EVERYTHING, all have to be under control. Urgh, I hate to be sick! Not like Facebook is any fun, it's kind of boring I would say. Anyway, thank God I'm much better today, or else I have to be admitted to the hospital for 3 more days. 3 whole boring days, can you believe that?! But I'm not going =] Phew, what a relieve.

Why am I addicted to English songs lately? Usually I'll be stuck with Korean songs, but now, Korean songs seems a little boring to me. Did I change taste? Weird..

Home is the Best~

'East or West, Home is the Best' is what Bong always say. Well, now I really understand it, feel it, and know it. Being in the hospital for 5 days, the thing that I would fear the most is there's a patient next to you. Getting the whole room is the best, no one to disturb you, no one to annoy you, snatch the toilet, talk and laugh aloud, and visitors walking around. That's what happened last 2 days and yesterday morning. But at home, you only have to argue with your family over the noise and toilets. I just wished to go home right now..

Hospital food... wow.. Totally speechless. Last 3 days, dinner was served at 5.30 p.m.. Last 2 days, it was served at 6 p.m.. And yesterday, 6.30p.m. only my dinner was served. Come on, can't you be punctual? At least at home, dinner is always on the table at 6.30 p.m. SHARP. I kind of wondering how my maid be so on time.. Yesterday, I ordered VEGETARIAN FOOD. The taste was...fine? The cauliflower, er hem..boiled..tasteless.. Luckily I just LOVE cauliflower. The tofu, fried, tasteless too. LUCKILY, it still have it's own tofu fried smell.

Ok, let's talk about the..bed.. The bed sheet was actually, kind of, literary made of plastic.. Disposable, yeah you can say that. Maybe because it will be cleaner if you just 'use and throw'. Alright, heck care the sheets, mind the mattress. Urgh, uncomfortable.. And did I say about the air-cond? It gives out weird, creepy, annoying, noise! It's like rusty metals plus old air-cond plus bird squeek sound. Way creepy..

BTW, in the middle of the night, there's a sound...of a crying baby... I heard it... twice... Well actually my dad heard it too, and it's so not scary. Haha.. it IS a real baby. I'm just so way freaking bored, there's nothing here for me to do except using this laptop. I can't sleep... It's ok, just continue chatting.. and chatting.. and chatting.. until it's time for me to go back to my HOME SWEET HOME...

Trip to The Hospital..

23.10.2010
I realise I had Appendix, went to the Hospital for a checkup, missed the steamboat with friends. Doctor said that the appendix exploded. that god I did not delay. So I did a surgery, and fasted for like 2 days. And whenever the lady who send in the food send in, she will say that the patient can drink, not eat. But who cares, the doctor said that I'm allowed to eat.

24.10.2010
It's actually the same. A Japanese-Buddhist lady came over to see me, which I don't know who the heck she is. But she isn't important, just a visitor. Then I found out that Puan Leong's son, is in the same hospital as I am, she just don't want to tell me which wad is it.

25.10.2010
An indian lady started to stay next to me. Darn, she really noisy! So many people visited her, laughing, talking, non stop. Don't you know I need to sleep??

26.10.2010
Early 4 a.m., a nurse woke me up and said :"There's a fire!" So all of us went down. Apparently there was a fire, somewhere. And I saw Puan Leong, her son and her husband. Well, I'm home sick, and I'm home now. Still got to get back to the hospital in like half an hour. BTW, the Indian lady moved out today! THANK GOD!!

After PMR..

16.10.2010
We thought of going to Setia Alam's night market. On our way to fetch my sister from tuition, mum keeps talking about the fish head noodles in Kota Damansara. Well, I was starving as I did not had lunch, so I told them that we can delay the night market and go to Kota Damansara, next to 1 Utama. So in 1 Utama, I tried on quite a lot of dresses, 8 I guess. I bought 1 anyway, and I'm wearing to the Halloween party. Soon after that, dad asked us to go to the highest floor, Jusco. Well I saw a crowd, and when I looked down, I saw Ali Cafe, which led to Raymond Lam. My sister, who is a HUGE fan of him, leaped into the air and scream, well I'm actually kind of exaggerating. But she did that. So we RUSHED down, squeezed into the crowd to have a good look. My sister was devastated as she can't look at him face to face. He was so near, yet so far..

17.10.2010
We went shopping at Klang Parade, When we reached home, dad's friend came with her BABY! I carried him, he was just so relax..for like 4 minutes. Just when he saw my face, and realised that it was me whose carrying him, he CRIED! Did I look that scary? Come on, babies LOVE me..last time. Why did he cry?! Maybe he's just no used to strangers i guess, hope actually.

Lately..
The mosquito season is BACK! I hope they're not contaminated by diseases that will cause sickness like Denggi. Is that he reason why I'm feeling feverish lately? Please don't, I'm too young to DIE! Alright, stop cursing yourself! Think out of the box, maybe you're just..weak? Guess so, hope so, please do so. But I'm not only feverish, I'm always exhausted. For example yesterday. I took a nap for like 4 hours, but I'm already tired by 12a.m., that's impossible. And today, napped for 2-3 hours, and now I'm still sleepy. Please don't tell me there's something wrong ><. Okay, don't think about anything negative. This Saturday, 23.10.2010, going to Puan Leong's house for a steamboat party, while next Saturday, 30.10.2010, going to PBSM Headquarters for the Halloween Party. I'm sure it's going to be fun! =]

Dad's Convocation - 26.9.2010

So dad graduated, around 20 days ago. Did not manage to upload any pictures on facebook nor my blog as PMR was just around the corner and it ended last week. Trip to Johor was nice =], but the cab, airplane, hotel was.. urgh! TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE, VEGETABLE! We took the yellow cab, which I actually expected the black cab a.k.a. the limo. It was so....indescribable. I got down from the cab feeling dizzy and wanted to puke. Thank god I didn't. And we took firefly, instead of Mas Airlines for some reasons which I forgot. And the flight was so bumpy that it gave me a terrible headache, right after the freaking dizziness from the cab. F.Y.I., I kind of accidentally hit a stewardess butt>.< (It's not me to be blamed, the airplane was cramped!)We went to the hotel at night, it was...tiny. No remote for the TV and air-cond (weird), no window (dude, it's a budget hotel, what did you expect?) and the flask to heat up the water..GROSS!!! Didn't they wash it? It smelled like coffee!!

Well, before we went to the hotel, we dropped by Danga Bay (which I don't know if I'm spelling it correctly) It's something like a fun fair, but the ticket for any ride was way freaking expensive. Can't afford it, so we rode a few, well actually each of us once, mum twice. There was this guy, played "bumper car" with my family except me, mid-30's, looks kind of..pervert. I don't like the way he looked ant my sis and mum while he's chasing them with that car. Thank god I did not play that.

On the next day, was the official day for dad's graduation in UTM. He looked kind of smart I got to admit=] Took lots of pictures (kind of) but his wrinkles were all shown =( His pictures taken by photographer of UTM was sent to my house around half an hour ago. Look AWESOME! Too bad there are only 2 pictures. Can't upload any of the 'Johor trip' pictures at the moment, some problem with the damn P1 Wimax, as usual. Dad's complaining to the company everyday though, yet not a single improvement.

Phew, typed so long, got to go now, chiao. =]

Recipe for my delicious kimchii - Specially for Lin and Bong

1. Cut and wash the chinese cabbage (1-1.2kg). Make sure you drain it properly before you put into a pot to soak in the salt water.
2. To prepare the salt water : the ratio for the sea salt and the water is 1:10. Translated, if you add in 1 cup full of sea salt, pour in 10 cup (same cup) of drinking water.
*Please do not use paip water.
3. Soak the chinese cabbage for at least 5 hours. You do not need to soak the radish and the scallions.
4. To prepare the sauce, you need to prepare ginger, garlic, wheat flour, sugar, water, fish sauce(optional) and chili powder.
5. Garlic : 2 tablespoons (after blending)
Ginger : 3 tablespoons (after blending)
Wheat flour : 1 tablespoon
Sugar : 2 and a half tablespoons.
Water : 150 ml (approximately)
Fish sauce : 65 ml (approximately and optional)
Chili powder : 125 ml (I measured with a cup) (add more or less depends on your taste)
6. Preparation for the sauce :

• Heat up the water then add in the wheat flour and the sugar. Boil it under a low flame and mix it till it thickens.
• After allowing it to cool down for a minute or two, add in the garlic, ginger, chili powder and the fish sauce.
• Mix all of them together and allow it to cool.

7. After soaking the chinese cabbage for at least 5 hours, drain them real dry and put them back in the pot. Leave a cup or two of the salt water as the gravy for the kimchii.
8. Add in the other vegetables such as radish and scallions.
9. Add in double or more of drinking water according to the amount of salt water you add into the vegetables as it might be too salty.
10. Mix the sauce with the vegetables evenly. You can do it with your hands so that it will mix evenly. Just make sure that you wash your hands cleanly before doing that.
11. Cover the pot and leave it outside in room temperature for at least a day. Do not leave for more than two days or it will turn out very sour.
12. Keep it refrigerated on the next day.

♥Taylor Swift

She's awesome, she's real, she's true, she's great - Taylor Swift - my idol♥

God's sign..

On Saturday : Dad's mushroom grew big and fat, yet beautifully.. The orchid bloom, after not blooming for ages.
On Sunday : A rainbow appeared.
And my mum said : " No doubt about it!"
Well, for once, I actually admit that she's right, 'she' did call, and it's a great news=] My friends were happy to hear it, Lin was kind of overreacting.. But, I'm just glad that she's excited for me=] My mum sounded very (very very) happy, I'm kind of scared if I failed after going this far. All the best!=]
2 more days to go, Wednesday at 1pm, going back there again, to that awesome, nice, beautiful, huge school. I just love that school, I want to go there badly, I do not want to be stuck in a government school anymore..

Tomorrow..=l

Tomorrow decides everything, well, most of it.. If, just if she does not phone me, I don't really know what will happen.. Hmm, maybe going crazy for the whole holiday. Freaking scared right now, might not be able to sleep tonight, that's why I kept busy the whole day, just to tire me out=] Just thinking about it freaks me out, it really is stressful thinking that I might not get in. It's ok, not thinking now, just thinking that I have loads of exercise books for the whole holiday supply. Better finish it fast.

Nexus

Outside the main gate of Nexus..

Small playground between the buildings of the school..

The top of the mini playground..

The corridor on the way to the examination room..

Had an exam in Nexus today.. How was it?? Tough.. Squeezing my brain out of my head.. By Monday night, we'll see how it goes, see if I receive her phone call, or not.. If yes, of course it's good news. No, it's great news! But if don't have, then..it's ok.. I wonder why my parents are so confident that I'll get that phone call.. Hmm, I kind of doubt that myself.. It's ok, at least I tried, right? Wish me all the best =]
By the way, Nexus is really huge! My legs were even tired when I walked from the examination room to the front gate, and that's not even half way round the school. It's a nice school though, wish I could go in..

The different feelings..

Happy, sad, joy, fear, excitement, grateful. All these are what I felt today.. God knows those are good or bad.. I felt fear on the stage, and then sad, as I sang horribly as I have stage fright. Happy, joy, excitement and grateful, was felt all at the same time. It's when I received a message written :" You got shortlisted for NEXUS!!" Tears of joy ran down my cheeks. At the same time, thanking god, who fulfill my dream. So the next thing, got to study hard on my Science, Mathematics and English. And next week, I'm gonna show up with full of confidence, without fear. As this, is my once in a lifetime chance =]

Guys..

Used to thought that she is the closest girl, used to thought he has always been honest to her, used to thought that she will be the first to know everything huge about him. But she was wrong, he disappeared, he went off without letting her know, just like what he did in the past. She was hurt once more, she will never believe him anymore, she never will trust every word he says, and she never ever will let him hurt her once more. That's why, I don't trust guys =]

Friends..

I used to think that friends are like everything to me, I can't live without friends. But I now know that even if you have a hundred friends, they do not as much as a true friend. And I am truly blessed with some true friends, who always support me, encourage me, teach me, lead me, and always be there for me. Thanks, my friends =]

The end of trial...

Today finish trial's last paper.. Next.. is PMR.. Not getting enough sleep for the whole week.. Damn sleepy right now.. I studied History the most, seems like there are some improvement =] Yet, unsatisfying for me.. Did I give myself too high hopes? Well, honestly saying, giving myself high hopes give me pressure as well as encourage.. But, my History is temporary good enough, just got to work harder =]See, even my cat read Geography till he fell asleep.. This proves that Geography is a sleeping pill.
<-Acting like 'super cat'. Haha~

Stay strong=]

Tomorrow is trial lur~ Why I sound so happy de?? Actually I don't feel anything.. It's only ANOTHER exam.. After this trial,It'll soon be PMR.. THAT really freaks me a little..

Haizz.. Yesterday when a pos laju came to my house, I remember thinking :"Huh?? So fast come already?" But it's not what I was expecting... I guess,what I'm waiting, will not be here so fast.. But.. What I want, is not getting it fast, it's what is inside.. I want it to be written as I expected.. Something like : "Congratulations, you've been chosen...." and not :" Sorry, your request have been denied.."

Can I take the pressure? Will I be able to accept the fact..that I might not be good enough? Can I just treat it as it's just a dream, it's gone once I wake up? But I'll have to face it anyway.. Just stay strong =]

Almost done~

My "fake" essay, done..
Results, done..
co-curricular, done..
left parents income..
Hope can get in lar..
But hor..
5 places,
is really freakingly limited..><
how o..?
Just try my best lar =)
If didn't manage to get it,
I'll just go back to the normal boring life..
So,
try your best, kay?
I can do it de.. =]

Trying hard..

It had been like 3 days,
and I still don't really have the idea on how to write it >.<
But,
I still have to think of something somehow..
I gotta finish it by Sunday,
or else,
I don't think I'll have the time to send it..
So..
GA YAO!!

Scholarship..

Just printed the form for next year scholarship to xxx...
Well,
although I feel that I won't be able to get through,
I just wish,
at least I'll be one of those short-listed ones..
If I really get this scholarship,
there are nothing for me to worry about anymore..
So,
I'll just cross my fingers,
pray hard,
and try my best.
Ga yao =]

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♥ 七. 不可回点哦, 并且愿望会实现和得到幸福

♥ 坐上幸福热气球，开始咯♥

幸福热气球：第一阶段
1. 绰号：Nicole
2. 星座：Taurus
3. 生日：29th April
4. 兴趣：Texting, Singing
5. 血型：Dunno..
6. 最宝贵的东西: My cell-phone, MP4, Family & Friends..

幸福热气球：第二阶段
1. 有喜欢的人吗: No
2. 有交往吗: No
3. 幸福吗：Think so..
4. 他很爱你吗：No
5. 如果你有勇气最想做什么：Erm.. Do bungee jumping.

幸福热气球：第三阶段
1. 你被谁点：Kura Bong
2. 他是你的谁：Deskmate
3. 他的个性是：Sweet
4. 他长得怎样：Cute
5. 跟他认识多久：3 years
6. 你想跟他说什么：Don't sad 'coz of love..
7. 如果他变成你的情人：...

幸福热气球：第四阶段
1. 最爱的音乐：Alot wor.. Never say never, Already gone, etc..
2. 最爱的季节：Winter
3. 最爱的卡通：Spongebob Squarepants =)
4. 最爱的颜色：Purple and Green
5. 最想去的国家：Alot also.. Japan, USA, New Zealand, Switzerland, etc..
6. 最爱的水果：Honeydew
7. 最爱的人：My mum==

幸福热气球：第五阶段
1. 你很爱哭吗：Yes
2. 你很爱笑吗：Yes
3. 你是很有信心的人吗：Depends
4. 你想要怎样的生活：Simple yet wonderful
5. 你喜欢自己吗：Yes
6. 你喜欢睡觉吗：Yes
7. 你喜欢唱歌吗：Yes
幸福热气球：第六阶段
开始点名：
1. Kura Bong
2. Han
3. Shirlyn
4. Chai Huan
5. Nate
6. Vivian
7. Ah Woon

8. Poh Yin

如果你有三个愿望 , Tell me your wish :
1. PMR score 8A's
2. Next year transfer
3. Family and friends happy always

Stupiak me..

Sometimes,
I thought that I was being stupiak><
But,
It shows results..
Good..
Bad..
It depends..
I just hope that,
no matter what happen,
I'll just keep in mind that,
I've done my part,
and don't blame myself for the results.
'Cause there's nothing I can do about it,
And I've tried my best to maintain either sides..

RC Prom Night 2010..

Last night's prom night was fun..

Making up wan fun too,
especially when we all are almost late..
Haha..

Lin helping Leen to pick a dress..

Lin looks nervous><.. Bong looks nice right?
Haha..

Lin n Han..

Bong:"Nicole, how do I look?"

And I love my hair^^
The colour is nice..

Lin n Shiow Wei got rose last night,
too bad,
bong, han and I didn't get,
haha..

Taken lots of pictures last night,
all uploaded on facebook.
BTW,
han, lin, bong, leen,
you girls look awesome^^